My life is a fucking disaster.
billiepaige
1. It is fucking July, and I still haven't enrolled in school. I don't know why the fuck I keep putting everything off, but it is starting to weigh me down.

2. I still don't have a fucking driver's liscence. I have been driving illegally for nearly a year. I feel so anxious when I think about taking that test again, and I don't even have the money to get it anyway.

3. I don't have a place to fucking live. Shane and I moved out of our house in Norman a month ago, and we have been staying with his parents ever since. They hate me, for the most part.

4. I won't be fucking graduating for fucking ever. I'm supposed to be a junior, but I have at least 80 credit hours of fucking useless classes. Fuck me.

5. I have been unemployed for nearly 8 months, and I am broke as all get out.

6. I think I'm out of banana rum, so tonight is going to fucking suck.

The debt we owe imagination is incalculable.
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billiepaige
Everything seems perfect until you look a little deeper.
I can't understand how I am happy and sad at the same time, all the time.

Lord save Courtney, I love her way too much to let this happen.

Christopher and i are so strange all of a sudden. I hate the thoughts I'm thinking.

I'm scared to move to Norman. I can't wait though. I think things will only get worse once I get there.

My mother is going insane.Every time I notice how crazy she is it makes me want to cry.

I want to go to New York so badly. Chris, please kidnap me soon.

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billiepaige
i am so happy.
i can't get over it.
i love my life,so fucking much.





Dear god, i miss you sometimes though.

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billiepaige
my project just crashed.FML.

anyways,im being misty for halloween:)

fist in throat.
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billiepaige
so i heard you are doing bad and i cant help to think that part of that is my fault.no one wins in a situation like that anyway,and i only made it worse.i thought i was a good influence on you but it didnt last,and in the end i think i only made it worse,

im sorry kiddo,
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wonderful wonderful wonderful
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billiepaige
thi is the start of something beautiful:)
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beatle mania,
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billiepaige
im becoming more of myself lately,and im being so crafty:) i love my life:P

oh how i've missed my friends,

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billiepaige
because of recent events im not going to be using this page anymore.
thanks for that.

play,play,play,
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billiepaige
this summer has been one of the best ive lived so far.my first job is amazing,even though it may be coming to a close.shane and i are dating now.even though things got pretty rough,we are still us.and i like it that way.we have gone on so many adventures just in the last six months that i cant even count them all.i love being around him and working with him and buying mice with him haha.i think he is mostly why ive had such an amazing time,things at home arent running very smoothly,but i know i can always escape to his house and that makes it alot easier.

but it seems like every one is throwing as many obsticles at me and shane as they can,at times its hard to even be friends.i dont know why,but we have always worked everything out before the sun goes down that night.i like that.

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billiepaige
it bothers me that he, a "christian" goes off and drinks and smokes with little to no remorse.and i,once called myself "atheist" refuses to do almost anything of the sort.why is that? how can people do that?because of this reason alone,i do not call myself "christian".i call myself a daughter of the king of the earth.i dont want to be hindered by a label that has been tainted for hundreds of years.

i know that for two years i have said that i was atheist.that is truth.i was just waiting for my time,and i knew it would come.for a time i was so thirsty for god that it got to a point where it was more of me creating this atmosphere and less of the truth,and i didnt like it.i wanted to believe in a god that my mind didnt create,but one that was subtle and kind and would quietly whisper to me

now,i have that,and i will never deny what i believe in again,

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